Here we are, finding out the gender of our second baby. I never thought this would be possible due to my OCD. POCD, Harm OCD & Suicide OCD were amongst my biggest struggle after the birth of my first son. Suicide OCD lingered for a long time. I couldn’t watch a movie, read a book, or anything that had suicide in it. It felt like that was my fate just because I struggled with a mental disorder. Now, it doesn’t phase me. OCD is still there but I am able to enjoy my life with it & am grateful for my journey!