I wanted to share a little bit about when I first came into OCD Recovery and how I felt that I would “lose myself.”

OCD has been a part of my life since I was around 7, morphing through different themes throughout my life. Because of this, in my friend groups they always joked that I was the “group mom” because I worried about everything, was overly cautious, and controlling, wanting to make sure everything went right all the time.

So when I found OCD Recovery and found out there was an actual way for me to potentially heal this part of me and not always be worrying about the 15 different ways something could go wrong, I was a little apprehensive.

Of course, I wanted peace more than anything. The constant panic attacks, DPDR, and other sensations were completely exhausting, but I had gotten used to being this way. I was afraid that if I lost the anxiety, I would become reckless, which of course to my brain = bad things will happen.

This was also backed by my DPDR fears, and already having a sense of separation from myself, I was afraid that if I went through recovery I wouldn’t recognize myself at all.

But during my first session, Momin helped me realize that this risk did not even remotely outweigh the possible benefit of reaching recovery. To be so free of constant anxiety that my life would be so different, but in a good way. To go out with my friends to a bar, fly to another country, even something as small as trying new foods again. The very thing I thought would be “reckless” is exactly what I wanted now.

It definitely took some pushing in the beginning, but I went through with my sessions and did the work, and I’m SO glad I did because, even though I’m not recovered, I HAVE started becoming that “reckless” person I feared, and I LOVE IT.

I’m starting to fully enjoy what life has to offer, and that is such a gift.

So once again, thank you to Rob for starting us all on this journey, Momin for being my coach, and the rest of the team for all the amazing content you put out! ❤️